Is it really almost March 1st?
Who is with me and feels like it should be December 26th?
I miss writing personal things in this space - whether you read it or not.
So guess what I am in the mood for tonight…..?
I am heading to Denver tomorrow to watch my big girl play soccer - remember when
My girl is a junior in high school and I vowed that this year I would travel
with her as much as possible to watch her play. Her senior year club soccer season will
not come with much travel so this is really IT - like the end of my soccer mom days!
What????? She will sign her National Letter of Intent to play for Saint Louis University
next year and then I will be a college 'soccer mom' and will have to
travel to see her play at home - and she may or may not be in favor of that????
I am really feeling the bitter sweetness of letting my baby bird fly……
it's not easy and I don't believe I am handling it well. Being a mother
has been my life's greatest joy and greatest accomplishment, sending this
human out into the world brings both a huge sense of accomplishment
but also great sadness that it is over……I enjoyed every minute of it,
even the puke, the poo, the tantrums, the uncomfortable parent/teacher
conferences, the teen eye-rolls……..every.minute.of.it.
My little girl is finishing 8th grade - and will overlap in high school with
her big sister next year. I am excited for them to have this year together -
carpooling to school and a big sister to show her the ropes.
They are very different, my girls, so I can't wait to see what
high school brings for my little girl. She is very much ME - and I am
encouraging her to pursue her creative dreams! She will never
win a state soccer championship or play a D1 sport in college - but this
girl is going to pursue her own passions - fashion, design, performing.
I am certain she is REALLY not looking forward to having me
and her daddy's FULL attention when her sister goes to college -
ha, ha, ha!!!
Me - well, I am still trying to balance being a mom and running my growing
design business. New clients and faithful clients continue to
challenge me creatively. I have learned SO much and become better,
both as a designer and as a person. I am grateful.
I turn 49 years young in April ……THAT is unbelievable.
I am proud of those years but am always researching a better anti-wrinkle cream.
My husband and I also celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary
in April - we are planning a BIG trip!
We are also celebrating living in our Portland home for FIVE years
this spring! That is a record for our family - can you believe it?
I will admit - scouring the real estate listings is a frequent habit
of mine but my hubby says we are not moving. So I have some fun
plans to make some changes in our current home - some I have wanted
to do for a long time, others that indicate a new aesthetic for me.
I am excited to 'downsize' in my current home.
Life - it's bring growth and change, opportunities, challenges and reasons
to celebrate, contemplate and set some goals……it's a GOOD thing.
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As a college soccer mom myself, I know how you feel. Your girl may act ambivalent about you attending games, but deep down, she'll be really happy that you were there.
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ReplyDeleteI'm a fan/reader that rarely comments, but this post brought back the emotions I felt when our sons were of similar age and that pending fear of them growing up and moving to college. We survived and they are both married and have each given us a darling granddaughter. The transition period is the most challenging for me. Once we've traveled down the way a bit, it is a new normal that is equally wonderful. Best to you and to your daughters. I always enjoy your posts.
Karen
I enjoyed your writing about Stuff. I re-read the paragraph about "You have this one life..." several times. Your last paragraph sums it all up. I needed to hear that today. Thank you and blessings to you & your family. Susan
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